http://fools.blogdrive.com/ This is me and my darling's home, feel free to make yourself feel at home. Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:15:05 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Movies Vacation Friends http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/52.html Tue, 25 Oct 2005 11:13:14 GMT I finally moved on with my life and forget about her... But little do I expect, almost a year later today, I would be able to scratch the her carvings on my heart and found someone else. This someone else makes me feel not wanting to be apart from her and will want her to be my soulmate. The feeling towards this sweetie of mine is even stronger than I had imagined. I had thought that the lady to this blog who is the one person I will lost most in life, guess life is just too unpredictable and always has it's way of toying people, turns out the most important person just appear in my... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=52 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/51.html Fri, 24 Dec 2004 22:38:04 GMT I had finally got her number and got a chance to talk to her through MSN messenger. Through our conversation, I realised that he's treating her well, and she gave me a feeling that, she's happy and secured being with him. Although it hurt, but I feel so happy for her. As long as she's in my memory, this is what I wish to see her to have, a happy life and a life partner that would take care of her well. Knowing her harsh childhood, as long as she got someone that can protect her from going through hard time again, I'm willing to see her leave. It doesn't come easy for me at all. But... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=51 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/50.html Sun, 05 Dec 2004 21:22:40 GMT These are the SMSes that I still keep till today. Never knows things would just turn bad within days. Guess, that's life. Everytime looking at these SMSes, my heart will sink, thinking of those days. Still floating of these comfortable and happy days with her. 02-09-2004, 00:10:47 I KNOE u LOVE me NO more IS ok... IM sorry... but I still LOVE u..frm MY heart.. I can KOE tat U live HAPPILY now TAT'S good... alvin U r THE 1 tat I love MOST in MY whole LIFE. 27-08-2004, 00:06:47 Surprise! It's me CoMing bY To SaY i miss u...!! 24-08-2004, 00:36:13 I... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=50 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/49.html Wed, 01 Dec 2004 18:09:00 GMT I went to eat at the "mamak" below my house. She loves the food there, especially the "nasi goreng thai". The kakak, whom I would always tease her saying she's her godmother there started to ask me bout her. I told the kakak that we broke off already. She like to see her everytime we went to eat there. As usual, the kakak would say, my darling is sweet, so beautiful and she loves to see her. I wish that I could tell the kakak that I know all these and neither do I wish to see her leave. Until now, her gentle smile, her sunshine-like smile, her angry but yet adorable expression... All... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=49 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/48.html Sat, 27 Nov 2004 13:37:17 GMT If I were to given another chance to go back to the pass knowing all these would happen, I would still want you to be my girlfriend. I never regret a bit. Even though you are his now, but I just couldn't erase you from my memory no matter what. If that's hardship I have to go through to find the love of my life, then let it be. Everday I wake up thinking that I could forget you easily, but when I dig a little deeper, my heart for you will be seen. If that's the torture I have to go through to find the love of my life, then let it be. Let it all be, because I have found the love... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=48 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/47.html Tue, 26 Oct 2004 21:54:10 GMT I just watched the DVD of 50 First Date. Everything just started to hit me back, so hard. My heart felt so..... I watched this movie together with her. The memories which I never thought would just rush back into my head within minutes of it starting. http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=47 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/46.html Sat, 09 Oct 2004 22:46:10 GMT I try to close my eyes, but I can't eliminate her from my mind. I saw her pictures from the photo frame that she left behind... I tried not to look... the more i saw it... The more I can't control myself not to find her. She's leading a happy life with someone else... I CAN'T BE SO SELFISH.... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH........................ I loved her with all my heart... and now I can't get over her. http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=46 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/45.html Sat, 09 Oct 2004 22:26:25 GMT I thought that I would not have this same kind of feeling anymore ever since I got over my first love. The thought which would surface when I close my eyes and when I'm all alone. The thoughts of her every details, every movement, every words, every smile, every care and every second... The thoughts of having to hug her in my embrace once again. She's the greatest love I have had... Not even comparable to my first love. The feeling of missing and thinking of her is so deeply carved into my heart. She once asked me of my thoughts of wanting to have a family with her so much... (more) http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=45 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/44.html Fri, 08 Oct 2004 23:58:03 GMT It's 6am. The semi-dark morning with cold weather and drizzling rain reminds me of the days in Sheffield with her. I would always leave her house early in the morning before her housemates woke up. Before leaving her house, I would give her a kiss and walk back in the cold air. The last day before we leave Norfolk Park, it's was raining. I went home everyday after kissing her and sleep warm-heartedly. http://fools.blogdrive.com/comments?id=44 http://fools.blogdrive.com/archive/43.html Tue, 28 Sep 2004 06:26:55 GMT Probably, for all that had happened until now, I should the one be blamed. I could not bring myself to hate her. The more I try to hate her, the more I felt to be in her embrace again. I should be blamed: since the very first day of courting her, coz she might not even got over her ex-boyfriend yet since the very first week she came back from UK and I allow her to see him again since the very first time she went out with him behind my back and bang his car, and I forgive her since the very first time my heart ever got heart so badly as she lied and even denied that she was... 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